Staying on task

Another late night but I’m about to wrap up. Besides thinking about what I’m going to write, I had to pick a picture for this post. Not always easy as it seems. It has to fit my mood or feeling at the time. Well, ideally.
We are trying to get rid of a grill we bought a couple years ago and hardly use. We purchased a tiny portable propane grill this summer and don’t really need our old grill that is rusting away. So we’re selling it cheap and a guy from work is supposed to pick it up in the morning.
I skimmed the articles that I need to read for my two classes tomorrow. I’m always amazed at how much is said without saying much. Academic writing is long on words and short on succinctness. This makes it difficult to ascertain what is really being reported on. Perhaps it is just to report. Maybe I’m not giving them enough of a chance. Or maybe I need to read them a couple times before they sink in. Maybe they are just lame.
My sketchbook is ready to be handed in tomorrow. That isn’t so bad. Forcing myself to draw is turning out to be relaxing. Or at least the more relaxing of things that I have to do for classes.
This weekend is going to make my life a bit more difficult as I’ll be out of town a few days. This means I won’t be working on schoolwork. Though it may not be the case, I feel like this is going to make me behind. W. is going to drive on the way up so I can do some reading. That has worked well in the past because what else do you have to do when sitting in a car for 4 hours?
Communicatrix, hang in there. This “vacation” that you are on holds promise for growth and cultivation of awareness. See, we never really know who we are. We think we do at times, but the truth is, we only think we do. None of us are as simple as that.
Image: I took this picture on my way home from class last week. Ann Arbor is a visually interesting place so I snap pictures on my way through town, hoping for an interesting shot. The side view mirror with the trees makes it interesting but otherwise it’s sort of lame. I’ll keep working for that ‘great’ shot.
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Thanks. I do think we are occasionally gifted with glimpses into the Truth of our selves, but you’re right in that walking-around awareness is usually not so great.
It’s great up here, though. Things aren’t proceeding exactly according to plan, but you know what? That’s great, too.
I guess I was alluding (albeit poorly) to the notion that our concept of self is just that, a concept, a ghost. Without consciousness there is no self to reflect upon such matters. No sooner do we define who we are that we are pushing against or beyond that definition.
Maybe these glimpses into the Truth of the self is when we realize there is no independent or inherit self. We are all intricately woven into where we are and how we got there. There is this dependent causation thing going on. Who we are is what we do, why we do it, and where…and this is as ever changing as Truth itself. If you consider that Truth is what is, and what is is not fixed.
While I know little (okay pretty much nothing) about your situation, I sense some soul-searching going on and am inspired by your ongoing dialog with the world.
true, we may not know who or what we are, but our children do,,, just ask them.